Worth

I don't feel like I am good enough to be anyone's friend. I feel like I do things for the sake of doing it. Like, only to remain in contact with them. I don't feel like I genuinely interest people or give back to them. Sometimes I wish it were just me and the birds on this planet. I don't understand social situations. I still get deathly scared when I'm in crowds, or even with a group of people who know me. I don't know how to do it, and I feel like I'm wasting everybody's time. Even Ian. . . :(

This post isn't even about how much time I spend with people. Even when I am with them, I feel like a nuisance.

I wish I were a beautiful person, inside and out, so that I would be worth someone's time.

Summer so far. . .

I have a job, went to two graduations, graduated, hung out w/peeps, and experienced good things. Woot, that sounds like a good summer. Teeheehee. . .