O Happy Dagger!

Sometimes, I feel like a dramaqueen. I hate that, because I despise dramaqueens. I feel like I only want the attention on myself. I feel like that if no one is listening to me, no one cares. And to listen, I have to talk. I don't know whether I'm imagining things or if I'm really like this. And what's weird, is that I hate talking about myself or things going on in my life. I love listening to other people talk about their secret crushes, or devastating problems and making people happy. But if I'm constantly saying, "I love Juanito! Yay!" or "Oh my gosh! I hate --fill in the blank--! It's so annoying! ARGH!" when can I ever listen?
I feel like I exaggerate things to the point where I can see a crown atop my head, with flashing read lights reading "DRAMA!"
Hm, maybe I'm imagining things. Maybe I'm being one RIGHT NOW. Maybe I'm just stupid. Either way, tell me the way it really is.

Am I dreaming?!

Okay...I'm scared that I'm getting my hopes too high. Steve (who can be slightly annoying, but mostly happy ^_^) said he forced Ian to talk about why he wouldn't ask me out. And you know what he said? He said that he was:

a. Scared (of course)
b. Didn't want to ask me out in a conformist fashion!

Silly Juan...

If you knew anything about this, tell me!

Love is a song that never ends...

I'm taking Elaine's lead, and fessin' up who the apple of my eye is. And he has been since the end of September. Well, here are some clues;

-He's spazzy
-He's taller than me
-He's...french-canadian
-His least favourite color is yellow
-He has a cat named after a composer
-He's ditched many relgions
-He's a dorkwad
-I love him to death

I think that last one is the most honest. I love him. Not like "in love", but he's just one of my best friends. I feel like I can talk to him about anything, and just be my totally completely self. But he's so wonderful. He...I can't even explain it.

When I see him, I have a rush of serotonin. He's like the safe drug. I feel at peace when I'm with him. I just love him so much. I want to be able to show him how much I care. I want to be able to look him in the eyes, and say, "I love you."

Sadly, he doesn't like me. He said I'm one of his best friends, but that's it. I'm happy with that. Of course I'd MUCH RATHER (much much much rather) go out with him, but just being able to spend time with him is awesome. I can't describe it. And it doesn't stop. Not only does it grow, it matures. So they get deeper as they become stronger. It's wonderful to love someone that much. I'd do anything for him. Anything.

P.S. I'm also taking Aubrey's lead...bonus points if you can catch the title's reference

P.P.S HARRY POTTER AND THE DEALTHLY HALLOWS COMES OUT JULY 21ST 2007.