Frustrated

God! Everyone keeps fucking misinterpreting what I'm saying, or telling me stuff without backing it up!!! It's driving me insane. I was complaining about not hanging out enough with people, so a friend tells me, "We would invite you, but you and Ian are always all over each other, so we don't..." NO NO NO. THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT.

I am not just Christine, who is going out with Ian. We are not the same person. Yes that's cute, but seriously! I MEANT ME. NOT HIM. ME! Why don't you invite me, not why don't you invite US!? I really don't care anymore, I just hated getting a bullshit answer that made little sense.

Also! Another friend told me I was in a "destructive relationship." You know, I was happy to listen why. If that's so, I might look into making changes OR break up with Ian. YES. Break up with him. We're so close at this point, that I'm confident we would be friends afterward. Absolutely confident. I might be acting ignorant, but at least that's one less thing to make be afraid of the future.

It made me angry, because he REFUSED to explain himself! WTF. WHY WOULD YOU MAKE SUCH A DRAMATIC STATEMENT AND NOT BACK IT UP. FUCK MY FEELINGS, IF IT'S GOOD IN THE LONG RUN, FUCKING TELL ME!!!

I don't understand how my relationship could be perceived as "destructive." We're both totally happy. In fact, the only reason I've doubted that, IS BECAUSE OF THIS STUPID FRIEND WHO IS FULL OF SHIT. Not really, he's actually really smart, but WHATEVER.

And you know what?! I could sit there and pick apart everyone else, like they apparently do with me, BUT I DON'T, because

1. I know it's rude
2. Why is it my place to judge?
3. I don't say crap if I don't know what I'm talking about

This person doesn't know the tiniest thing about my relationship! God... people are full of shit these days.